| Why hello Lisa. |
[22 Jul 2009|10:33am] |
I thought I saw you write something about how facebook was using your picture.. lame.
I personally hate all those stupid quizzes on facebook, seems like when i ever go on its clogged with millions of quizzes.
sorry I don't give a fuck if your spirit letter is D.
I'm cleaning my room and packing for Siggraph. if I don't do it now or at least start I wont have any clean clothes to last me. I'm packing away mostly dresses and shoes. haha I bought 2 pairs of high heels last week and I can't wait to where them!
I think Nick is sick of going anywhere with me b/c we always seem to find a shoe store and I end up trying on like 3 pairs and looking for 20 minutes before he can get me to leave...haha.
OH and I graduated from Cortiva. Just have to take my National Exam and then I'm set.
god, i have my ipod on, btw I dont even listen to it since I have my computer or phone now-in-days..I don't even know why I haven't sold one of my 3 ipods yet..but anyway, I haven't updated any music since 2007ish. so all 1700 songs bring back some type of memory..I kinda miss driving around listening to my ipod and going crazy in my jeep.
well, I should get back to cleaning my room..I have court in 2 hours.
gotta love blue island!
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| i know better |
[16 Feb 2009|05:45am] |
everything is still amazing with nick,
although I've been tested by the only 2 men I once loved this week.
one said we should keep in contact b/c I was the only one who got away and he wish he could have done things differently.
the other said he has known me forever and no one compares to me. also, that he knows he will wait for me b/c he has already waited 7 years.
I don't think I'll ever leave Nick though. I always thought he was the one, I wish I could go back to the start and just be with him before all the other guys.
he took me to his school saturday to show me how to make stop motion animation with a big computer lunch box thing and some pipe cleaner. then we took the red line to a thai place 1 block from where obama had his valentine's day dinner. then we walked 2 blocks to see fanboys in an empty theater with a huge popcorn. it was my first valentines day with someone and it was amazing.
I can't wait for spring break though, I need a break...waking up at 6:40 5 days a week is not good.
CHEWIE!
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| 9pm bedtime... |
[07 Dec 2008|08:29pm] |
3 days of school this week.
2 days next week.
then i'm done till the 13th of january.
I can't wait for wednesday though, I am going to be staying over at Nick's dads with him to watch their dog, midnite, in boilingbrook. I need to go to and from school on a different metra, I'm going to by a 10 ride even though we will only use 9 of them...
I have to make a self care journal, like stretches and exercises people do daily to basically care for themselves. thats due next wednesday though, my last day..I just can't wait for the break, but i'm know it will be over fast...
time to look for jobs online..
all my posts are pretty pointless now.
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| oh thanksgiving. |
[27 Nov 2008|11:36pm] |
I had a really good day. I spent it with nick and his family. I slept till noon, left for his aunts and then ate a plate of food, sat on the couch with the baby and nick. after about an hour of sitting we all left, nick turned to me in the car and said, "thanks for coming, I'm so happy right now. I love you."
I know he's the one.
he's my best friend. my person. my favorite person.
fast time.
:]
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| this will probably be deleted in 48 hours. |
[24 Nov 2008|12:40am] |
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While my life is going really good this year, starting March 2008.. my friends at school don't understand why I only really hang out with Nick and I don't have any real close friends. A few know I don't like talking about it, they think its regret, on my part..they are mostly right.
But, also, everything...to me...happened so long ago..I don't want to go back and relive anything. I was a stupid naive girl. I thought I knew what love was..I thought I had no choice. I keep people at arms length now b/c I know what it's like to have no one. I know how it feels like to lose my whole world. I miss my best friend. I miss him every day. but I changed, I can't go back to the beginning. I don't know if I would even if I had the chance. I did something that changed our relationship forever. we will probably never be the same.
I miss the fact that I ruined friendships with people that I never even fought with..but unlike most of my friends at that time, they had one thing I didn't, they had love, of some sort...i went to write out all the relationships but I can't even write their names down without feeling guilty. everything happens for a reason..and I'm glad I ended up with nick, but wtf, why couldn't I have found him before everything changed.
everything changes.
people always leave
but
sometimes they come back.
I'm so happy, I'm so fucking happy with Nick, I just want to tell someone how happy I am, I want to be able to call someone at 1 in the morning and talk to them. I miss having someone around, even if they are using me to nap at my house before they go into work. sometimes I imagine my life, had I not dated them. the mistake I made was believing my heart, thinking that even if I didn't have everyone, i would have him. I make mistakes and people don't talk to me. its been over a year. people have done worse things and been forgiven. I choose the wrong person, no one talked me out of it.
I'm officially moving on. as everyone has, or should have.
no regrets, yea right.
no one cares.
fucking fake.
I hate mondays.
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| fucking memories.. |
[09 Nov 2008|11:45pm] |
life is god, besides not having a job I got straight Bs last term and am halfway done with this term..I really fucking don't want to go to school 2morrow, mostly b/c i'm not tired right now and I don't have a test or anything due 2morrow...but I'll go, even if I get no sleep, probably only b/c Nick will be downtown 2morrow and we can take the train home together...this might explain why I've already missed all the allowed days on tuesdays..I don't really find motivation to go sometimes without him. oh well, 5 more tuesdays without missing or being late and I'm guaranteed that I'll pass those classes.
I've been trying to find a holiday job or something part-time..I don't really need the money, but it also wouldn't hurt.
I got a random text from a random number at 1am last night..I'm thinking it was a wrong number it said :"I think I need to tell you something.."..I think..
meh, anyway..I felt the need to update..
Nick and I are amazing, I got him some pretty awesome christmas gifts..
nothing else is really new besides I started running 3 miles 2-3 times a week about a month ago..running is kicking my ass, but I feel really good.
well, I guess I should try sleeping..
nite.
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| So many people have come and gone.. their faces fade as the years go by |
[18 Sep 2008|01:54am] |
about to go to sleep but thought I should blog.
on my way to meet nick at columbia I randomly saw some red-headed girl in the UC apartment building, it was Julie! awe, it was cool, I haven't seen her in like a year...but just as quickly as I saw her we parted ways b/c I was kinda late to meet nick.
Nick and I ate lunch and then we walked around b/c he had class at 12:30, and I at 1.
after school nick and I went home and were lazy, wednesdays are always a long long long day for us.
this weekend I'm going on the badger with the usual crew. I'm not gonna lie, the badger was a huge part of good memories in my life, I really miss hanging out on the deck with whatever friend I would bring and lily, and playing games that involved running around on the boat and getting yelled at by old people.
i don't even know what i'm trying to say..i guess you always miss a one time friend.
but I'm bringing nick and kelly's bringing her brazilian lover..i'm not joking..its gonna be funny no matter what.
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| fast as you can. |
[11 Sep 2008|05:30pm] |
I'm doing a fast for 3 days, doctor's orders.
I've been having major issues with my kidney so I've been having to diet and lose weight, by also working out.
This fast should cleanse me while making me feel really healthy.
2morrow I have to drive to go to a meeting/drug test for my new job.
basically I need to get to sleep early tonight...
the rest of the weekend i don't have much going on.
ohhh i just found out i'm going on the s.s. badger this month!
yay!
I need to call nick!
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| i've been looking around the world, you've got something for me.. |
[18 Jul 2008|02:44am] |
school is amazing. I wish I would have done this route from the beginning.
nick and i are more than amazing.
I was just talking to brian knottttt and he even said that maybe it was a good thing I had him and I replied with: at this point I don't regret anything that happened because right now I'm the happiest I've ever been and nick is worth everything to me.
going to the dunes with the boy 2morrow! :]
less than a year till i'm out of school...then i'll get a job/apartment..we've got plans. "I" turned to "we."
some people are probably sweetpuking but I love him.
we love each other*
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| radar love |
[24 Jun 2008|07:16am] |
nick and I have been dating for basically 3 months..
i've never been happier with someone.
we fit together perfectly and haven't been apart for more than 24 hours.
I really love him.
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| mario 64 ds is really fun.. |
[28 May 2008|03:51pm] |
I've been playing it all day...I just got back from swimming. I think my back is a little burnt b/c it was chilly and I fell asleep on my tummy.
in other news I think I might go to the beach this weekend if its nice enough..
i don't have any other news really..
WEKO! soon. :]
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| I always have fun with Nick... |
[24 Apr 2008|05:04pm] |
and I would miss it if I never saw him again.
but its so weird to think that a year ago I had a totally different group of friends.
everything happens for a reason, and I'm so glad I have the best boyfriend ever now.
it seems like its been 10 years since I have hung out with the "group," when its only been about 11 months.
nothing can ever be the same, I think. and i'm sorry.
I'm sorry about dating chris and marko.
I'm glad I haven't burned any bridges dating nick.
there was a reason all this happened though, and I deserve whatever happens.
this summer is going to be all about starting over.
MAY 2ND=LOOPTOPIA.-see you around.
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| i can ride my bike with no handle bars... |
[09 Apr 2008|04:36pm] |
I'm at purdue right now...on one of their shitty computers. I realized that I don't need money but I want a job. I'm trying to look for a night job. like midnite-8am. there's a lot out there. so meh. I'm taking summer classes this year, and I wanna work.
life is good.
meh, just felt like updating.
not too much new. I'm doing good in school and I have a new boy.
the highest highs<3
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| don't ask me, let me tell you.. |
[12 Mar 2008|03:05am] |
tommy dunnnnnnn
u fucking creep ass..
he just called me drunk...asking me like 3208748032 questions.
it was funny...when did he start drinking...I think he told me, but I forget..
life is good.
so fucking good.
I fucking love my life right now.
go sober up tom!
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| are you sure that you can handle me? |
[03 Mar 2008|04:47pm] |
the last few weeks have been beyond amazing.
new boyfriend.
new awesome friends.
plus eastern was amazing.
I feel like I finally found that place in my life in which everything is basically in place, just the way I like it.
and spring break starts thursday for me...which is matt's 21st birthday and this weekend is the south side irish parade.
probably having a party saturday, I just need to clean my room.
this week I need one night to do all my homework/papers that are due this week b/c I need to get A's haha. and then one night to clean my room...probably 2morrow night...I have to watch crash for a class...then no more wednesday classes! yay! and then on wednesday after class I'm gonna go to best buy/the mall/target.
DETROIT FOR KATT WILLIAMS!?
hahaha I hope so.
damn phil, lets make this happen. you best tell me by tonight.
IN THIS CLUB IN THIS CLUB.
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| i need this |
[19 Nov 2007|01:10pm] |
i never thought this would happen like this...i always thought I would tell all my friends, instead of just telling my mom, sister, and jeff.
it happened september 9th and i haven't told anyone that i was going to tell.
so if you dont get this...well think about it...
im pretty sure none of this matters, and no one cares now.
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| the challenge of democracy. |
[30 Oct 2007|12:08am] |
I love how i try to rebel and sabotage my semester but i'm not even able to do that...not like i really wanted too, but i thought i missed a government quiz due to all the funeral stuff but no...it was rescheduled..this is a good thing..
i can't believe i only have a month and a half of school left till christmas break!!!
started watching a new anime...
and i went to iowa this weekend.
it was so fucking fun.
i miss gerry though.
I bought him 2 sweaters at the store, but i don't know if i will see him before its cold at eastern...or if it already is..
maybe turkey day.
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| I was staring at the sky, just looking for a star. |
[27 Sep 2007|04:30pm] |
I know what you're thinking.
it's none of your business.
school is amazing...I have some homework to do soon...and study more but I'm really happy where I am right now.
supposedly i'm going to some toga party at eastern or visiting paula piles soon.
i'm in such a better place right now, it sucks that i don't talk to people I used to be close with but shit happens.
my sister just got home, I have to go to my apartment and wait for the comcast guy all weekend, YAY INTERNET. and swimming..and u know..stuff.
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[06 Aug 2007|12:38am] |
I feel so bad for jeff right now...i can't even think about it with out crying.
I have to go to roosevelt 2morrow with my dad to figure out my living situation..
I can't even think..a more detailed post later on when I wake up..probably will be friends only..if not later than sometime this week..but I might be busy w/ roosevelt and finally seeing chris..its been like 4 days..haha. i've been busy and he's been busy/sick.
eh I should probably elaborate on the whole chris vs. my friends thing.
i'm not proud that I fucked over friendships to be with him but i don't get why everyone can make mistakes and I can't..I feel like everyone is avoiding me like the plague, or just using me, and some just wont see me unless i'm not with chris or if I break up with him. i miss gerry. my mom asked me why she hasn't seen him in a while and i broke down.
in therapy i'm supposed to have a support group, and I only have 4 people down, and its not that I want them on my support group, its that they are the only ones who talk to me. not saying everyone doesn't talk to me, b/c maxwell does but shes been busy with work, and sally is usually up for hanging out..i've just been isolating myself b/c i really don't feel welcome anymore, it's like, once i started dating chris I lost some level of trust or dignity with people, which I knew would happen, but god damn, I didn't think it would suck so hard. I'm glad how everything is but I seem to be doing everything the easy way, like hanging out with chris b/c hes my boyfriend or hanging out with marko b/c hes conviently located by me and he's easy to talk to and hes kinda on the outs like me.
i know everyone doesn't hate me but.. idk, I'm just ranting about stupid shit b/c of this thing with jeff.
we were supposed to hang out tonight...i'm gonna call him 2morrow, I rented the bourne movies, maybe he wants to do another trilogy, only this time no1 breaks up with their g/f or b/f..
forget about that other post, I think I'm done.
nite.
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